Day 2-3 I CAN do this

5 years ago•4 Replies

Technically today is my 2nd smoke free day though I only had one cig the day before so it feels like 3 days to me. My thoughts today:

I don't really want to kill everyone that comes close even though my brain is trying to make me believe I do (I assume my husband will be brave enough to stop sleeping on the sofa when he realizes this)

I'm crying because my eyes are getting used to the lack of smoke :rolleyes:

Of course I do not need to fill my body with toxic cr@p, it does not make me feel better at all, that's just an illusion.

Plenty of people live without smoking, I can too, my brain just needs re-programming to believe this (now where did I put that re-programming sledge-hammer?)

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nsd_user663_55450

5 years ago

LOL U go girl......

Eleanor

I don’t post on here much now but your post caught my eye....No 1 because my middle name is Eleanor and No2 because what you are saying reminds me of my way back then.

So girl let me tell you I am now 6 months into my quit and you can be at this stage yourself.

I too kept going because I couldn’t face that 1st week again, where I rowed with everyone, smashed up the microwave on day two and thought I should be locked away by day 4. Even my kids steered clear of me in the first 5 days. That said just do it, grit your teeth, shout at the top of your voice, go beat up a pillow, but get this first week done then see how you feel.

I am not saying it was plain sailing after that the first month was hard but bit by bit you get there and I am now sat here with red wine in hand not even thinking I want to smoke.

Oh yes I also leaned very heavily on this forum and a certain two people called Max and Kat who really and truly helped get me to where I am now.

You go girl and in the words of Shaun T...Dig Deeper....Deeper than you ever have in your life.