Ok so had a pretty dark evening last night. First of the major bad times and i like the good times. Cant deal with the bad times. (Someshow if you saythe last two sentences with an Irish accent it sounds prettier ha ha)
Anyway i kinda stepped out of line yesterday with someone and it was playing on my mind and who should knock on the imaginery door in my head. Captain Cigarrette your good old pal who never judges and lets you down and is there for you through thick and thin. (I wish you could swear in this thing).
Even right said fred couldnt help. I did the only thing i could think of. I went out in the rain and sorted my garden out. Always enjoy that. Then i showered and got coffee, sat in my pants and watched youve been framed. Tonight Matthew i am going to be a SLOB.
Went to bed feeling sorry for myself (pathetic) and woke up feeling (dont laugh) a little emotional. I mean im not blubbing or anything like that but my hard exterior is definitely not as tough as i am used to. I mean show me one of those adverts where the dog has been abandoned and through your donated money they are rescued and found a good home. That'll be it game over. im gone!!!
So i decided maybe i'll man up today. Too much camp is affecting me i think, and my boss doesnt like it when i wear high heels to work.
Im gonna pull out the special weapons today. The songs we had at our wedding. Check this out, it was the coolest day ever.
Firstly Jess walked down the isle to the Rolling Stones - Gimme Shelter (what an intro just ignore the chorus of Rape Murder. Very weddingy)
We signed the register to Suede - Trash (no one got the irony ha ha)
We left the registery office to Iggy Pop - Lust for life
Finally our first dance was Ocean Colour Scene - Get blown away (who cares it is about a prostitute. It has meaning to us. Just to clarify that isnt how we met ha ha)
So there you have it. Gonna fight to get my mojo back. Didnt help this morning with Skunk Anansie on the way to work and weep playing. I nearly crashed the car!!!
Anyway stay cool people and welcome to another day on planet struggle. We fight our individual battles as a collective. Together we can achieve anything. (apart from time travel maybe. Actually if someone can invent time travel can you go back to when i had my first cigarrette and kick my ****!!!)