Hey all, this is going to be a rant i am afriad.
Today has been taxing. I have had to drive to the shop for a chocolate bar to stop an urge. and at the pub where all my friends were smoking I ordered a apple crumble with custard instead lol There was a point i nearly said 'oh go on sort me a fag' but i didnt...and 15 minutes later i realised i was cool once again and happy I didnt muck it up.
I had a coke rather than a wine. Im just not there yet and I dont want to make it harder on myself than i need to. I have got drinking nights planned ahead at the end of the month, which as i feel atm i am not looking forward to.
The thing that annoys me about using NRT is that everyday i crave the same as yesterday, just my tolerance to it deminishes and i find it gets harder rather than easier. Cold turkey is AWFUL but once its over its over and you are cool again. So I am thinking ill just bite the bullet this weekend and just be ****** done with this. It just feels boring now i really have just had enough of this dependancy on doping my brain with nicotine. wasted energy delaying the inevitable.
sorry if it seems i am downing NRT, some people get on great with it I know, I just dont unfortunately.