hey, So well into day 2 now. I had a good start then a very crap middle. My mum was supposed to be at work today thus leaving me to be alone and feeling crappy. But no she was at home - moaning about various things. Its like 'ffs i dont need your moaning right now, i havent got the head space for it'. I went and bought some nicotine lozengers as a emergency stock as i had no NRT at home at all. I had one while walking round sainsburys. So im still smoke free, not so much nicotine free. but its ok its a process isnt it, i dont plan to smoke again so wether i go nicotine free now or in a few weeks is irrelevant.
I also decided on the lozengers as they are slow release rather than a instant hit. I think they spray mimics fags to much and you come rely on that crutch being there. i have never tried a slow release before and i feel these help to make you feel that YOU are saying no to smoking rather than the spray, if that makes sense?
Anyways, I dont want to use NRT to replace the cigs, i tend to use them as a last resort as i want to get used to not needing to use crutches to control my feelings and situations and see if i can get through them on my own.
If there comes a point i have managed 3 days without the use of them i wont bother using them at all (72 hours principle).
Anyways, I feel a sense of uncertainty in my feelings, but not in my desire to quit so i will see how the journey ahead pans out.