Another one of the "yes it will get easier it really will" threads - and I'm chuffed with myself
Had to take my dad up to sort out some bits about his new car - yay day off boo stressy drive!!
It's about an hour and 15mins drive, so back when I smoked I'd be gasping for a fag at the end of the journey and be a bit "itchy bitchy" (thanks Magicbunny) and my dad is *not* a calm passenger.
Anyway, today it was a bit stressy getting up there, parking even worse (old smelly smoker me would have thrown a tantrum and stomped off to smoke :eek first thing dad sees is his new car YAY but it's round by the smoking area BOO and it's in use DOUBLE BOO. So I gritted my teeth and went over, expecting craves, pangs and all the rest. But nope, nothing apart from a small tug and then thinking "EEEWWWW that flipping stinks" - and trying to keep out of the way of her stinky smoke as much as possible.
Now I understand why people in the street and in laybys used to give me evils when I stopped for one :/
Didn't even take my e-cig along 'cos I'd have felt a complete prat taking it to the smoking area or puffing it on the forecourt - but I did have gum which was fine and stopped me getting itchy.
Talking of e-cigs, I'm (as Sarah said) rather attatched to it and want to change that so I've bought some lower strength patches and am going to buy blanks to go in it so I can finish the job and go nicotine free witout too much pain. Have been conscious of the fact that while i use it less than I used to smoke it's a bit cheaty to use it like I am when I *need* to be kicking the nicotine - so I will.
Won't do a full course of them 'cos I don't need to, it's just to make sure I don't relapse.
And finally it's 18weeks tonight since my last fag - which is flipping good