I have decided to go back to day 1 and not kid myself that I am still smoke free. Over the alst few weekends I have have caved in while out drinking and thought I have this under control, I can just be a weekend smoker.
When I found myself buying a pack last night when I wasn't drinking or going out I realised that I have slipped back.
So on my way to work I threw them in a public bin and decided I would admit my shame to myself and all the good people on here who helped me back at the start of January and go back to Day 1.
I have learnt that when you stop, you have to stay stopped and not think just one would be alright. And I will also make sure that there are no butt ends lying around the garage, as that was the stary to my lapse.
This time I am stronger and more prepared.