Even though my quit feels like it is strengthening as time goes on.....tonight I have been bombarded with smoking desires and whims...and I am trying to make sense of them :confused:
I started reading about ego depletion, something I first heard about on the Nicorette Active Stop programme.
Most psychologists apparently agree that we only have a finite amount of willpower and that if we constantly use this resource eventually it fails and we suffer from ego depletion.
This can make us falter and stop denying ourselves whatever it may be..smoking, drinking, unhealthy (but tasty!) food, drugs etc
Although I know I am not denying myself anything by quitting...only gaining...why am I plagued with these thoughts tonight??
Am I beginning to suffer from ego depletion?
At the start of my quit I used conscious decisions.
As I continue these decisions are becoming easier...
I didn't actually think I was using willpower!!.....
but earlier tonight....sheesh...I needed whatever I could muster!!
It is easing off now, 4 hours or so later, but I didn't like what I felt and hope this is not a sign of things to come.
I know I won't smoke........I have no need or desire to (my mantra early on and by the looks of it still) but why these whims now..............the one thing I do know is...they're bloody annoying!!! :mad:
I got through it by plugging my guitar in, taking a leaf out of "Spinal Tap's" book, turned it up to 11!! and let rip!
Felt much better afterwards.
So did any of our longer term quitters feel that they were "running out of willpower .... perhaps without even knowing they were using it?
I really hope that made some form of sense peeps, it certainly helped to put it in writing.
Thanks for your time