Two years ago today I coughed myself blue and threw my last cigarette to the ground in disgust.
In those two years I've had days when I craved and cried. Days when I was depressed and bored of quitting. Days when I mourned the old habit. Weeks when I would think obsessively about smoking until I wondered I was actually going off my head. Days when I just felt like bloody well rebelling and lighting up because I was sick of being so $!*&ING VIRTUOUS! Days, further on, when smoking memories would jump out and bite me and I'd feel - for a little while - like I was back at square one and it was never going to end.
Most of those days happened in the first year. One or two moments after that took me by surprise. But now, I can happily say that those days are gone. All gone. Those feelings pass, all of them. Now when a thought of smoking pops into my head I just grin and flick it away, because nothing on God's green earth would induce me to go back to that prison. It is effortless to be a non smoker now. It's a pleasure.
Whatever you're feeling, however bad it gets, please know that it all passes and it's so, so worth it. You're an amazing bunch of people on this forum doing an amazing thing - this place was the making of my quit, and I know it will be for you too.
So hang in there, best foot forward, and a very happy smoke-free Christmas and New Year to you all.
H
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This is the most wonderful Christmas present you could of ever gave yourself!! Pat yourself on the back and stand tall! You made it and have inspired others (me included) along the way!
2 years!! I am almost knocking on the penthouse door, only 10 more days and I will be smoke free for 1 year! I too say a big thanks to this forum and mostly the people!!
Helen, keep up the good work and continue to help all of us on our journey to a smoke-free existence!! ppat
and thankyou for always being that bit ahead of me and letting me know it always gets better and easier and now like you say effortless that is a perfect word for it now
I am nearing month 11 now and I can totally relate to your post and feelings.
Yes still get the odd moment and think where did that come from? Who knows and who cares, just smile to myself and its gone in no time.
Your support on the forum has been rock solid and you posts always make so much sense so thanks you for coming back and helping others, myself included.
Massive congratulations from me too Helen. You have been inspirational on this forum for me and lots of others. Your advice and support sensible and unwavering, thank god for you I say.Have a great Christmas and a very happy new year.xxxxxxx
Well done Helen
Completely deserved and a hard fought for achievement, another fine example of how it does get easier over time!
Congratulations H on two years, and thank you for sticking around to keep advising and encouraging on this forum; after two years that commitment to others is pretty special
Congratulations on your two year milestone Hellsbelles, and thank you very much for providing this forum with insightful posts. Your posts are a great help to people who are travelling the same road you have done.
Right. Pavlova is in the oven. Dont let me forget to turn the oven off in 40 mins. Ta. Turkey is lathered in butter, maldon salt and black pepper....stuffed with an orange and an onion and all good to shove in the oven tomorrow morning. (i'm a christmas eve turkey cooker....its easier) Just time, methinks, to stand on a chair....wave my glass of baileys about and sing to lovely Helen.....you listening helen?....its all good pissed stuff...........
'You raise me uuuuuuuupppppp so I can stand on mountains....you raise me up....to walk through stormy seas (or somat) I am strong when I am on your shoulders. You raise me up to more than I can be. '
Thank you Helen. Thank you so much for making me and so many others see that we could do this. Thank you for holding the torch so the tunnel wasnt so dark. You inspire me. Thank you.
Right...more pissed songs....
Altogether now.....
Oh danny boy...the pipes the pipes are calling. From glen to glen (God, I actually love this song) and down the mountain side. It calls for a link. Merry christmas everyone.
You are such an inspirational lady, you're always helpful, pragmatic and positive and we are all so lucky that you are still posting and keeping an eye on us regularly.
So, thank you Helen and congratulations on your second anniversary
Allow me to add my little bit of congratulations. You have been one of the people who have kept me strong in my quit. I'm 63 days behind you and looking forward to my next milestone as well.
Welldone Helen, I just read your post feeling a bit glum and deflated you are an inspiration! I now feel positive and want to feel how you feel now. I am new to the forum and I am realising it is the perfect tool to get rid of naughty cigarette thoughts!
I have smoked on and off for 15 years ( mostly on;() on day 6 now and this is normally where I buckle but this time round I want to and need to succeed.
Your story is brilliant I can't wait to say I have managed to overcome the cravings and niggles. A day at a time I suppose.
Again brilliant congratulations and Thankyou for your post was having a dark moment! X
Helen. Sorry to be late but I missed this till it got to the top again. Everyone knows that you are the business- always so kind and so positive. You are an inspiration to me and to hundreds of others. Thank you for lighting the way. xxxSandra
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