This is day 4 cold turkey. I don't particularly care whether I smoke or not, I'm doing this for my boyfriend because he has quit and is doing well and if I smoke it will make it harder for him.
I'm finding it really difficult though because I don't feel any sense of achievement for having gone four days. Because I wasn't actually suffering from having smoked yet (I smoked for 11 years and had no physical problems yet, except temporary nausea if I chain smoked), I'm having to look for other reasons for me to want this. I'm not fussed about the idea of living longer or the risks of heart disease/lung cancer to be honest. I know these are serious things, but I'm still young and no matter how much I try to take it seriously, the idea of my own mortality and illness is pretty much unimaginable for me so it's really difficult to use that as a reason. The idea of smelling bad is more of a reason but to be honest all my friends smoke so it's not like anyone I care about can smell me.
So I'm thinking that I need to believe my quality of life as a whole will get better. I was still pretty fit as a smoker and had no breathing or lung problems and I've never had a chest infection or anything like that. So I'm thinking more about my psychological health. Is there any evidence that quitting smoking will make me happier and more fulfilled? I think if I believe that I will feel happier, or that my mood will generally be higher as a non-smoker, then that could help to motivate me.