Hey. Im a regular poster here as i seem to quit every 3 weeks and only last 3 or 4 days.
I do really want to be addiction free though, i say addiction because thats what bothers me the most, the psychological ques i can handle, its the addiction that keeps me back. i want it gone. and theres only one way for that. the big cold turkey!!
so i was going to do it friday, and just spend the first 4 days in my room feeling sorry for myself lol but after watching a disturbing viedo on youtube about a woman who lost her voice back to cancer and she cried at the end of the video, it was a real reality check that this is serious and real...its not a fun past time. straight after i hacked my gutts up, couldnt stop coughing. to ride the wave i had a fag to make myself feel even more rough and sick and told myself thats it now, last one. tore up my remaining 5 and said bye bye in the bin!
so im going to ride this wave and see how far it takes me. i hope to a healthy beautiful island of addiction free life xxx