My reason for quiting - reality check

Hey. Im a regular poster here as i seem to quit every 3 weeks and only last 3 or 4 days.

I do really want to be addiction free though, i say addiction because thats what bothers me the most, the psychological ques i can handle, its the addiction that keeps me back. i want it gone. and theres only one way for that. the big cold turkey!!

so i was going to do it friday, and just spend the first 4 days in my room feeling sorry for myself lol but after watching a disturbing viedo on youtube about a woman who lost her voice back to cancer and she cried at the end of the video, it was a real reality check that this is serious and real...its not a fun past time. straight after i hacked my gutts up, couldnt stop coughing. to ride the wave i had a fag to make myself feel even more rough and sick and told myself thats it now, last one. tore up my remaining 5 and said bye bye in the bin!

so im going to ride this wave and see how far it takes me. i hope to a healthy beautiful island of addiction free life xxx

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  • Hiya Nikki, I think you're making one of the best decisions of your life :)

    I wish I had given up when I was in my 20's instead of wasting money, smelling vile, damaging my lungs & ruining my skin :(

    You can do this, and everyone on this forum is in the same boat so we will all support you.

    Denise :)

  • Hey. Im a regular poster here as i seem to quit every 3 weeks and only last 3 or 4 days.

    I do really want to be addiction free though, i say addiction because thats what bothers me the most, the psychological ques i can handle, its the addiction that keeps me back. i want it gone. and theres only one way for that. the big cold turkey!!

    so im going to ride this wave and see how far it takes me. i hope to a healthy beautiful island of addiction free life xxx

    Nikki

    Oh I feel for you. You have been back so many times. I can see you are trying but something is not working for you.

    To me it seems you have it wrong. People who go cold turkey concentrate on beating the addiction by getting their psychological mind working right for them.

    You have to accept that the mind is the cause of most quit failures not the addiction. This is true which ever method you use. You need will power, there is no magic cure.

    Keep battling and you will find that beautiful island but you really, really have to believe you can do it, so does your head

    Keep quitting, you will get there.

  • Hey,

    Thanks for your thoughts, and i totally get where your comming from. i do believe my chemical addiction is stronger then my mind though at this moment in time, i have tried everything! and i did feel the most incontrol on the cold turkey attempt back in january, might souns hard to believe lol but i am actualy a very mentally strong person, which is why this is really frustrating me and im going to deal with chemical first rather than psychological first.

    I am starting on friday, so i will update this to let you know how i got on trying it this way again. i dont work at the moment, so im not leaving the house until i feel good basicly!! thats my plan! xx

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