Still here, lurking.. Desperate to take the plunge again, but afraid to.
I wonder if I'll ever be in the same mindset I was in September, when I quit for 3 months and actually took pleasure in it? It seems unlikely. I think that was my slot and I blew it.
I feel grotty and tired and smelly, and I know why!!
My 9 year old no longer says anything when she sees me light up through the window. She just looks disappointed. My 5 year old continues to 'smoke' drinking straws and pencils :eek:
I have built my fitness up since I quit in September, going from doing absolutely nothing to now running 5k every other day. Smoking is madness. Yet I continue...
Do I try a different tack this time, or just get on with it and stop being so silly? I used patches for 3 days last time, then just embraced the whole thing and went cold turkey. Don't think I can use any medication due to a history of depression.
I have to do this, but when, how??
This place has been a fantastic help to me in the past. I am lookng for some motivation right now guys!!