Ok, I have been grappling with this one for a while and think I should put it to question.
I smoked two cigs last Friday, should I go back to day 6?
I quit on New Years Day cold turkey. Didn't have a single puff until I got drunk and finally cracked when someone lit up in front of me near the end of the night. Then two weeks after that I was absolutely hammered and stopped caring for about an hour.
The first month was an awful struggle and I know just having one or two propagates the addiction, but I still feel like I've quit and am on month 2. so what do you think?
Now it's time for the rant, and you can stop reading now if you want. I had no idea how much of a struggle this was going to be and I only smoked around a half pack a day. All of you 1-3 pack a day quitters are an inspiration to us all, I can't even imagine what you have been through to stop. All of the generic information out there briefly goes over the benefits to not smoking and a little bit of science behind it. In reality, it feels like an ongoing war with your own body, from my own experiences. Smoking becomes so ingrained in life that once you stop, your brain makes up for it in different ways. I started eating more when I first quit, and have had a more than healthy appetite since then. So I gained some weight, and now I have to get back to eating healthy and exercising more. Unfortunately I could only start doing that after the brain fog cleared around week 3 or 4. Then the depression hit and other compulsive behaviors started forming. I finally feel like I am beyond all the really difficult parts, but now have new challenges resulting from my decision to smoke for so long.
It's frustrating, but at the same time I feel like since I quit smoking, that I am able to identify and deal with the new problems that arise. This forum has been amazing in helping me. So I am going to struggle on, because I don't ever want to go back in that hole I was in. Thanks for listening and good quitting to everyone!