DAY 19 W/ depression.

[nsd_user663_41061]

Day 19! I can't believe it!... I still need the lozenges

under the tongue ..1/2 a tablet is all I need. Then I am ok.

I am battling depression. I will see a Dr. on Friday. I know the

2 are making me think negative thoughts now..I don't want

to continue working..I feel no joy. I am not eating a whole lot.

I am numb..bland...I am depressed over a broken

relationship...this happened in Nov 2011. I understand why

the break up. But the mind plays games with you...I can't sleep

unless I take a sleeping pill. Does any of this make

sense to anyone else? For the most part I do function

normally in public...its the insides that is sad/bland.

Well thanks for the read.

God Bless

[nsd_user663_20978]

i understand your thoughts when i was really bad i remember the negative thoughts, feeling no joy, that numb bland feeling , hardly eating cause my stomach always felt full and i could have tricked anyone into thinkinging i was a normal human being when in public but inside my head was a different story, i remember talking to people all normal and laughing yet in my head it was echoing around driving me mad

happy to report since quitting and getting through the tough times i have improved leaps and bounds and no longer need medication and feel a naturally happy person

i have never been through a break up but i understand all the other feeling you are going through

stay strong things can only get better and easier as the days go by

boo

[nsd_user663_41061]

"Tears of a clown" syndrome. Yes i remember!

No one see the battle going on in your mind; as you fight the pull of tobacco.

You just have to go through it!

You reap what you sow. Keep planting NOPE days and eventually the harvest will obliterate the down side of quitting.

You have to trust yourself truly, madly deeply.

Boo you are included in this, My God thank you for your words...oh my God I thank you. Someone understands what I mean...it means a lot to me. It really does. I will see the Dr. and get my meds for sure. I had a friend tell me it could be my Thyroid...I read up on it...and sure enough, some of the symptoms are me! I had a Thyroid issue over a yr ago...I stopped taking the pills...the side effects bothered me....and now here I am feeling all crazy like...and it could just be the Thyroid issue I had previously!!! When I read up on it, I was like, that has GOT TO BE MY ISSUE!...I feel better just know ing this much!!!!! WOW! GOD BLESS YOU BOTH! YOUR COMMENTS show me love...across the world you come...I am in central California...3 blocks from the Pacific Ocean I work and Live...I should be happy! Living! Well let me get my RX again....get on the right track! No desire to smoke tho!

[nsd_user663_41061]

I need to make an adjustment ...I now know what is wrong with me..

its not just depression alone...it is actually HypoThyroidism...

in other words my Thyroid is not putting out enought hormones..

and thus I am acting and feeling strange! YIKES! I see the Dr

on Friday FEB 3 and get an Rx...I see that this is a life long Rx

I will be taking....the Thyroid plays a big part in the mental and

physical part of us!!!! I had this a year ago, but stopped taking

the pills...DUMMY....now while I have stopped smoking, its

acting up again...So for those of you going thru depression...

it might not be depression...altho the symptoms for HypoThyroid

include depression, its not a stand alone thing.. I hope I made

sense here. God Bless... Oh and this is day 21!!!!

Yeahhhhh...no patch for 10 days....only a lozenge now and

again...so its almost COLD TURKEY!...I am amazed!!!!