What a roller coaster ride this is turning out to be! Oddly enough, I 'knew' before I started this attempt that this time - it would work. I don't know why & I've stopped asking - it just supports what I've heard from a great many people: "You're ready when you're ready & not a minute before."
I'd never gone 24 hours without a cigarette & that was the key for me. Once I passed that milestone, I knew I was going to do it. Don't get me wrong - this is far from easy; I can't believe the nasty places my mind wants to take me. It's exhausting & exhilarating, a source of pride AND humility both.
It's terrifying to realize how much I have to 'relearn' about myself & life. I've never NOT smoked & now that the 'honeymoon' phase is passing, the hard mental graft starts - finding new ways to cope with just about anything without lighting up.
I'm learning a great deal by reading posts here since I found this site this afternoon. I expect you all have a great deal more to teach me.
Very quick background - I'm female & 51. I've smoked almost 38 years. I've quit many times, sometimes holding out for hours & hours...LOL. I'm using Champix this time & while the side effects are annoying, to say the least; I'm coping & most important of all... I'm NOT smoking. I've always been a walker & earlier this week, I added some very gentle jogging. Might as well take advantage of the positive changes even if I can't feel too many of them yet.
Hope everyone is staying smoke free this evening.