This week I took my first steps back into the 'real world' and started a computer course, only a two week basic word processing thingy, but I was a bit rusty I was really looking forward to it, partly to update my skills, and partly because I thought I would sail through it without having to panic smoke all the way there, and without having to sit there wondering when the break would be so I could have yet another cigarette. But today I got a shock. It was approaching break time when I suddenly got a really overwhelming craving for a cigarette, for no apparent reason. It didn't make me feel irritable or depressed, it was just THERE, right in my face. I kind of thought it might be because on previous occasions if I was on a course, I would be the first one out of the door at break time to light up, so it was part of the old habit and an unexpected trigger coming back to haunt me. So when the break did come I deliberately went outside with the smokers as I have to learn to be around them sometime, and I knew that however I was feeling I would not accept a cigarette if offered one. The other thing was that I didn't take my Champix yesterday as an experiment to see if I could manage without them, and I hadn't taken it this morning either. This is the worrying part as I have done this before and every time I do I get a craving when I am least expecting it, so how am I going to cope when I do have to stop taking it?? Hmm, need a plan for that. Anyway I am fine now. And tomorrow I am on the course again, so if that craving reappears I will be ready for it. Funny though how these unexpected triggers can pop up so suddenly after all this time lol.