Hi, I just need to vent a few of my feelings, it's been a while since I've been on here as I did not think it was fair on others if I was still smoking an coming on to the forum.
For a few years now I've tried to quit as many of you know sometimes lasting several months but then something just clicks in my head and no matter what I have to have a cigarette. Each time just as I thought things was getting easier, bang I was back on them again.
I would much rather not smoke for obvious reasons like health and money but I just don't know if I can do it, is it that I don't want it enough? I don't know what the answer is. I've read, read and read and know what it does and what a terrible drug nicotine is but yet I still reside to the fact that I am a smoker, would I do that for any other drug...
I have tired virtually every NRT replacement product, champix, hypnotherapy, bioresenance, everything and spent a lot of money on trying to quit (although not as much on actually smoking).
I just do not know what I should do, I was thinking of trying the champix route again or do I want to put myself through all that again only to come back a few months down the line saying once again I had failed.
I see others reaching milestones like 1 year plus and I think gees I wish that was me then all of a sudden I get frightened and don't want it to be me as I'm scared of facing life without a smoke.
I know no one can answer my question for me, it's just that I'm trying to make sense of it all.
Thank for listening