So! I've FINALLY reached the first year milestone of not smoking and it's GREAT!!! I say 'first' and not just 'one year' because I'm planning on it being the first of many... I can't wait for the 'smoker me' to be a distant memory. Admittedly, I had 2 cigarettes sometime in April... this was followed by 3 days of feeling completely sick (like a constant hangover) and I have no interest in repeating my mistakes!
Mind you, I seem to have lost most of my cravings now and not smoking comes completely naturally to me. Funnily enough, I was made redudundant on the 31st of August and I didn't get a single craving. I kept thinking that I wished there was some magic pill that would make everything better, but smoking was never an option or desire. 4 days later I was offered a job elsewhere and I really would have kicked myself if I'd have given in.
I feel clean and fresh every morning and when I excersise I NEVER run out of breath which means I keep on going until my muscles give in... It's a very liberating feeling and I would have never got there if on this day last year I hadn't decided that I was going to put smoking behind me. It may sound silly but Day 1 really is the first day of the rest of your life - it's choosing life.
Day 3/4 of my quit I found this forum and I truly believe that the people on here are what got me to succeed up till now. Their kind words, support, advice and wisdom got me through some very tough times.
Thanks everyone, and I hope someone who may be struggling today finds this useful xx