The good news - no the great news - is that I have been nicotine free for six weeks. Yay!!!
The disappointments for me at this stage are:
[*]I am still so preoccupied with smoking (or more precisely, not smoking) - I still think about it so many times a day.
[*]I still feel physically crappy (more to do with the Champix, I think)
[*]I haven't yet been able to find new ways of dealing with my emotions post ciggarettes. Even a fairly benign feeling such as boredom is still quite problematic.
This was never going to be easy for me. 40 years of smoking between 30-40 a day is a serious addiction to go to war with. The Champix has undoubtably made it more bearable for me - I haven't climbed up the walls the way I have on previous quits.
So all in all, life is good! In my heart, I feel that I have learned from my previous relapses, and I really don't think I will ever smoke again. This forum has been so helpful to me - thank you to all of you for sharing your experiences and offering support. It really makes a difference.