I'm new here, only just registered. I am 49 and been smoking since I was 17. I class myself as a heavy smoker, at least 20 a day.
I'm sat here smoking cig no9 of the day as I write this. Sunday is my quit day and my first ever attempt. Tomorrow night I have a party which is why I've chosen Sunday as my quit day, wasn't sure a party was a good way to start as I know there'll be people there smoking.
I have health issues, some smoking related others (according to my doctor) are not, yet I still keep lighting up and puffing away, while all the time in my head are the health issues - they're not going to go away while I'm still a smoker and I hate myself because of that.
I had a scare about 4 years ago where I was coughing up blood, not continuously but on and on over a period of months. I eventually pulled my head out of the sand and saw my doctor. After numerous tests it turned out to be a nasty lung infection and thankfully the antibiotics put a stop to it. I promised myself whatever the outcome of the tests, I would quit.
Four years on I've moved no further forward.
Last year I had moments of finding blood in my mouth and I thought the problem had returned. Another batch of endless tests were carried out and eventually I was diagnosed with Essential Thrombocythemia, a Myloproliferative disorder of the blood. My consultant says this isn't as a result of smoking but I'm not convinced. I'm now on lifelong medication to control the problem - there is no cure.
During these tests it was revealed I have shadows on both lungs - this has been diagnosed as bronchiectasis........another condition for which there is no cure. My lungs are rubbish and are older than I am - the tests 4 years ago revealed I had the lungs of a 64 year old......I was 45!
I know I have to stop smoking but I'm scared I can't! That's why I've joined the forum, I've visited the forum and read people's stories which has inspired me to join up and attempt the quit.
Sorry for the endless rant!