6 Weeks - an uncertain period

Hi all

Firstly, apologies for not responding to many threads recently, time has been against me but whether you're at day 1 or day 1001 I wish you all well.

Throughout this quit I've been absolutely adament that I will not smoke another cigarette..... until about a week ago, since then I haven't smoked but I've thought about smoking more and more and it is a worry.

I remember a post someone made a while back that they felt the challenge of giving up was over, they'd won that battle and so became complacent, and that's exactly how I've felt for a week.

I'm kind of reassured that I was out Fri and Sat night and resisted but there would have been a dozen occasions each night when I thought about chucking in the quit.

I even had a mad moment this morning when I thought I'm so bored at work I might sneak out and have a quick puff, then I read the diary someone posted (7 year anniversary) and it re-emphasised the need to stay quit.

Good luck all, if you're coming up behind me I hope weeks 5/6 are smoother than mine.....

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  • Everyone feels like this now and again - I had a blast of it just a couple of weeks ago. At times like these you have to keep reminding yourself where you've come from and where you're going, as it were.

    If you slip, you'll have to start all over again, and wouldn't you rather slice your toes off with a rusty razor than go through that initial withdrawal all over again?

    Can you afford - in any sense - to be a smoker? Do you want to be a smoker? Do you like what it does to you? No, no and no. Keep reminding yourself of that and stay strong.

    And eat Nandos.

    H x

  • Hels - I've been given 4 differnent loyalty cards in the last 2 weeks !

    Dropped a notch on the heat-ometer last night to medium, no good, back up to hot next time.

    Thanks ladies, I know you're right and I will be fighting it. I was also told I'd be made redundant last week but I cant claim this has created conscious stress for me as I've known this for some time, in fact it's me that's re-structuring the dept so I'm actually making myself redundant !

    Though you never quite know what the sub-conscious mind does....

  • Hope you get over this shaky time Horse - you're an inspiration to all of us coming up behind you and we're all cheering you on :) xx

  • Hi Horse - I've not been online for a little while but have come on for a bit of support because I, too, have found the last few days particularly difficult. We've been away for the weekend and my husband is back to being a fully fledged smoker. he's back on Champix so i am hoping it is a matter of time. It's not that I actually want one of his cigarettes, it's just i feel the habit part is still there, in my head. I am thinking for him and when he may want another fag, so the smoking mindset is still with me. The thoughts of 'i'll do this then i'll have a fag' have come back big time and sometimes I feel like I have only just quit. That said, i can then go hours without a single thought, which is progress.

    I think we all need to keep reading and reminding ourselves of all the reasons we are doing this. I know, personally, I would look a right plonker if I lit up again now after the fuss i have made! There's a woman at work who has started again after 7 months. I feel so sorry for her and don't want to be her right now because, like Helsbelles said, I don't want to have to face starting all over again.

    I am learning that a quit is never done and dusted, and it is only the brave who can keep it up! I want to be one of the brave ones!

  • Horse you have been such a ray of light on the forum and supported all of us regardless of where we are on a quit or a failed quit.

    People who are way down the road will tell you this is normal, and of course the news you really want to hear....................it will pass.

    Heres a little something to get you through x x

    farm1.static.flickr.com/78/...

    Can't get images from work Karri but I expect it's something really sweet like 10 hotwings and spicy rice, a skip full of black peppered cashews or an entire supermarket shelf of bombay mix.

    I'll check it out when home later.

    Take care

  • Hi Horse - I've not been online for a little while but have come on for a bit of support because I, too, have found the last few days particularly difficult. We've been away for the weekend and my husband is back to being a fully fledged smoker. he's back on Champix so i am hoping it is a matter of time. It's not that I actually want one of his cigarettes, it's just i feel the habit part is still there, in my head. I am thinking for him and when he may want another fag, so the smoking mindset is still with me. The thoughts of 'i'll do this then i'll have a fag' have come back big time and sometimes I feel like I have only just quit. That said, i can then go hours without a single thought, which is progress.

    I think we all need to keep reading and reminding ourselves of all the reasons we are doing this. I know, personally, I would look a right plonker if I lit up again now after the fuss i have made! There's a woman at work who has started again after 7 months. I feel so sorry for her and don't want to be her right now because, like Helsbelles said, I don't want to have to face starting all over again.

    I am learning that a quit is never done and dusted, and it is only the brave who can keep it up! I want to be one of the brave ones!

    Mrs CP - you have been my inspiration in here (apologies for the stalk threat).

    I'm a day behind you so I've always looked out for your posts as a possible warning of what's coming my way, as ever yet more fine words of wisdom.

  • oh no you don't!

    Hi Horse

    I am around a week behind you and your welcome and support is what helped me through the first few weeks... I remember that feeling of lurching from one huge craving to the next and finding it so hard to believe that it would get better... but you said it would and it did :) So I guess you're telling me now that it gets a bit worse again from time to time? I was beginning to get that sense actually! Think back though - it can't be as bad as day 1? Or day 6? or day 10? Just remember how far you've travelled and keep stuffing that bombay mix in :D

    PS remember to tell us when it gets easier too so I can unclench my teeth!

  • Karri - thanks for that, lurve chicken !

    Stanley - it does get easier and the only reason that it's got a bit tougher for me is because of my state of mind. I definitely do not want to smoke again, but I feel as if I'm already a non smoker, I've won, and a small (very stupid) part of my mind wants to have a smoke so I can go through the challenge of beating it again, it's a very strange mentality and not one that I would think of rationally, but when having a few beers it's easier to become more irrational....

  • haha - hope you enjoyed them.

    On a serious note, I found a little something to assist me earlier.

    When I was a smoker (love writing that !) I had a cough and bad chest, my cough would always yield endless gunk, now that I'm quit I don't cough but what I've taught myself to do when I think of smoking/get a crave is cough, and the fact I don't wheeze or cough up rubbish is a reminder of why I stopped. Worked for me earlier today....

  • Horse - I did the same. I was asthmatic, not severely, but I could never do the lung function thing (where you have to take a huge breath and blow out hard and fast into a measuring thingie) without coughing. About fifteen days after quitting I realised I could now do this, and when I had a crave I would blow out huge breaths just to remind myself. I got some funny looks, because I used to do it in the street. I cared not a jot.

    I used to wake up coughing at least once every night, by the time I quit. I certainly woke up coughing every single morning.

    I so do not miss that.

  • I woke up coughing every morning too now after 35 years of smoking I don't cough at all!

  • Hels - damn right, ignore what other people think/say, they don't know what's going on in your life and how important some things are.

    Could make train journeys to/from work interesting though....

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