It's me again, with a shout for some advice and clarity.
I'm on day 50, very pleased with myself, managed to kick the habit with gum and willpower. I can see the obvious changes, like I can run further, I smell better, my teeth are whiter. I am just getting around to think that even my insides must be starting to repair themselves slighty.
Now heres the issue, I've just found out that a guy I used to know not a friend or anything, just a bloke I used to play football with has died, similiar age to me (42). Now I know this guy has never smoked in his life and I'm beginning to think why am I doing this and whats the point in packing in.
I used to think that I'm doing this for me, my wife and kids, I want to spend more time with them, however since I heard this news, I just think if your numbers up it's up, this guy has no more time for his wife and kids.
I think I must be on a bit of a downer and hearing that news has took me lower and I'm now thinking as the title says Why am I doing this? What is the point!!!