Not necessarily fell off the wagon in as much as wobbled...

[nsd_user663_5119]

Hi guys,

Hope you are all well

Havent been here for yonks and been having an amazing smoke free time :)....then came trying to sell my house, then came work stress,then came split with boyfriend and I coped really well for months until last Monday night when I bought a packet of 10 and smoked them all. Last Tuesday night, I bought 10 and smoked 5, throwing 5 away. Then nothing, didn't want any more at all, the thought just made me feel sick, but then a week later ie last night I bought 10 and smoked 4, throwing 6 away....am very confused, guilty and ashamed, but by the same token pleased that I have not fallen off....feels like a blip - could it be a blip? Help needed.....

[nsd_user663_24039]

Hi there, you sound just like me! I quit on 1st January and went though quite a stressful time and didn't smoke and then all of a sudden I had a couple. Then the weekend later I bought some and smoked about 30 that weekend, and here I am a week later - practically back to square one - smoking again

Anyway my other half (he quit in November and never looked back - git) sent me a link for this forum and here I am.

Anyway to cut a long story short - I still want to quit and am just classing the last few weeks as a 'blip'!

I'm quitting again tomorrow. Don't give up giving up. I figure that if you throw enough mud somes got to stick at some point!!

[nsd_user663_17606]

Hi Embo.

Sorry to hear you've had a crap time of late. You know what your trigger is now. So, you've come back and told us all what happened. If you didn't want to stay quit you wouldn't have bothered. Personally I'd call it a blip...for now. But if you keep on having these blips you'll soon be on the slippery slope to being a full time smoker again, and you obviously don't want that.

Go back and see your nurse if you had one, restart NRT if you need to, and revisit why you wanted to give up in the first place. And there are lots of members old & new who'll be here to support you whatever you choose.

All the best

Rachel xx

[nsd_user663_20558]

Hi Embo,

If you never smoke again, it was a blip. If you pick up another cigarette now it's a relapse

I agree with the above advice. You need to get a grip on yourself and have a good think about stuff, because once you've had one, it's so easy to lose the plot and go back to smoking (as most of us know to our cost :rolleyes:).

Do some reading. Refresh your quit. Jump back on that wagon and hold on for dear life. You can do this.

H x

[nsd_user663_15147]

If you never smoke again, it was a blip. If you pick up another cigarette now it's a relapse

My thoughts exactly... you can't really call the random buying and smoking of cigs a blip if you carry on doing it.

However, you seem to be very committed to your quit so call it a blip and carry on if you like.

I personally know that one of the things which has held me back from smoking in the past is the dread of going back to day 1, falling behind my quit buddys and just generally starting again. So, don't just call it a blip because you're afraid of all of these things too. Call it a blip if you know for a fact you'll never smoke again.

We all know you can do it