I've been so good...

[nsd_user663_20558]

"I've got this far, I've been so good, I've proved I can do it, surely I deserve just one cigarette?"

Before you all leap in and tell me not to, don't worry I won't!

But I can't deny I have had this thought quite a lot. I was just wondering if anyone else around this point in the quit gets the same thing going through their head? Or is it just me being stoopid?

H x

[Levs 1000 Days Smoke Free]

It your addict trying to get you to give in. You are right could have one BUT it wouldn't be just one, it would be 1000's. All it takes is one smoke to end up back to a full time smoker, do you want that, no.

You are stonger than your addiction. Most of all you know in your heart of hearts you don't really want to smoke.

And yes, I did get this to, I just told my addiction to do one, it didn't it swapped to mints but at least they won't kill me and I have lovely breath all the time

[nsd_user663_23871]

Been there, done that. I think this mind trick happens to anyone who has quit for any length of time (i.e. more than a few days).

So, NO you are not stoopid.

You are, as you Brits say......."Brilliant".

[nsd_user663_20558]

Don't you say brilliant? You should. It's brilliant, brilliant is.

Brilliaaaaaant!!!

See?

[nsd_user663_21995]

"I've got this far, I've been so good, I've proved I can do it, surely I deserve just one cigarette?"

Before you all leap in and tell me not to, don't worry I won't!

But I can't deny I have had this thought quite a lot. I was just wondering if anyone else around this point in the quit gets the same thing going through their head? Or is it just me being stoopid?

H x

Hi Hels,

You're 2 and a bit weeks ahead of me but I can certainly relate to what you've said.

I am now flying without NRT and hit the 2 month mark today. I've been in the house all day on my own (have some time off work) thinking noone would know if I had just the one .... but I managed to stop myself going to buy some. The strange thing is it's not even a crave, it's something else, something I can't quite put my finger on.

So the bottom line is that you can't have one or I will have to have one, and then we're both going to feel pants!

Keep the faith Hels,

Marilyn

[nsd_user663_20558]

Hi Hels,

The strange thing is it's not even a crave, it's something else, something I can't quite put my finger on.

Yes!! Exactly!! I can't either. It's like... a thing. A little voice saying 'but you've earned it! Stupid bloody voice. I'm not going to give in to it, it needs to shut up.

I won't do it, neither will you. That's what a support network is all about huh? Thank God for this forum. It's kept me on the straight and narrow many a time.

Helen x

[nsd_user663_20591]

hels i was thinking just the same thing today and its really annoying!! it makes me sooooo mad!!:mad: i know that i wont either but i want one!! this is horrible and it will pass...we gotta get through this together cuz even though i dont want one i still want one...does that make sense???

[nsd_user663_21995]

Guilty pleasure???

I was talking to a colleague at work recently and told them how I used to love getting the house to myself in the morning when the family had left to go to school/work and I had the place to myself. I would go into the back garden and light up and 'enjoy' my peaceful smoke before heading off to work myself.

As we talked I realised that I am/was also guilty of not joining in family activities outside of the house because I knew with them out for the day I would get the house to myself and I could smoke without bundling myself up and hiding it from everyone (husband knew I'd started smoking again but I hadn't told the kids; I'm sure they could smell it on me though!)

My colleague called it my 'guilty pleasure'! I think the reason I have been getting this niggling feeling this week is that my routine has changed as I have some time off and I have the house to myself during the day and my mind is saying 'go on, enjoy your guilty pleasure, you know you want to, no-one has to find out'.

Guess I'm going to have to find myself another guilty pleasure that's less dangerous to my health because I don't want to go back to smoking. Any ideas folks?