ok so here i am at 9 weeks with no cigs...no nicotene...NOTHING!!! everyone who can possibly piss me off over the last two days has managed to do so and now i gotta hang out with these people tonite!! they are my family. what is it about brothers, moms, dad, grandparents that can get to us so much!!?? i have practiced much deep breathing over these two days!! i believe i even put a pen cap in my mouth and sucked the air through the little hole to feel like i was smoking something:eek:......(you can stop laughing now!!):rolleyes: i went to 7-eleven today after dropping my son off at karate and i got a coffee and eyeballed those cigs really hard:eek: i actually thought about it!!! but no i didnt do it when i really stopped and thought about what i would be giving up by giving in to the nicodemon i decided that i worked to long and hard and that this is my 3rd time trying to quit in my life and this is the longest i have ever gone and i will not give up!!! sometimes that urge to smoke comes so fast and so hard and it hits ya like a ton of bricks and you gotta be really strong..i hate it....why o why did i ever start this horrible habit...will it invade my thinking forever....oh well at least i didnt smoke and i will proceed in telling the nicodemon to kiss my ---!!!