Hello all my new and old friends.
Yes, the news you didn't want to hear has arrived, I have fallen off the none smoking wagon.
Yes I am ashamed, yes I am upset, gutted, hurt and all the other emotions that go along with this however yes I am going to pick myself back up and try again.
I am sorry, 1st to myself, 2ndly to my partner and then to you all, everyone was such an amazing support to me and I feel so bad to have let everyone down.
I am going to try again, just not right now, I am going to give it a couple of weeks as I am just not in the frame of mind at the moment to jump right back on.
I think the mistake was trying to go cold turkey after taking Champix I thought it was just going to be as easy however sadly it wasn't and drinking and not smoking was my ultimate failure.
Anyhoo, as you know I haven't been on for a week or so and that was down to feeling to ashamed that I had started to smoke again.
Love to you all and to all the new friends on here please dont' let my failure put you off in any way!!!! I will still be here to support you all until I feel ready to climb back on and then I will be asking for your help again.
Love Shaz x