Well this is the start of day 11 for me.
Gradually my mind is coming back to normallity if there is such a thing esp after those tablets. I dreamt last night that i was waiting and waiting for a prescription for Zyban and i waited and waited then the alarm went off, how weird is that and im not even on zyban.
OH is back on his 2 days off and i knew it last night, he's an ex-smoker and snores so so loudly i could tell he was back in bed with me again, bless him.
I cant believe 11 days have gone by already, no real cravings or thoughts to be honest in the last couple of days, which is good. I cant wait to feel 100% so that i can drive my car again, those tabs made me feel like jelly all the time but i took my last one Sunday morning and i think they must be vacating my body now just the tierdness in the afternoons really now but i dont know if thats the tablets or just the stopping smoking, oh well it will ease off eventually.
I dont know why in all reality i did not give up before. I mean apart from 12 days of Champix, quitting on the 5th day of taking those and stopping that med on the 12th day (still not smoking mind you). Maybe it was a fear, a fear of what will i do, how will i be able to cope without my 15-18 different reasons per day just to go and have a puff. I knew from previous attempts a lot of mine is the hands bit hence i started knitting and its working, i also knew that i have to be the one to say NO MORE to cigs no one else otherwise it may fail because YOU need to be ready and you rmind has to be clear. I have quit this time FOR ME, no one else, just FOR ME and i feel really good about that. I am also now not taking anything, no patches, no gum, no tablets just the late night listen to the cd i downloaded, have my knitting to keep my hands busy and the Allen Carr book for a good read when i can. Overall this time it feels different. It was nice yesterday attending my hospital appointment knowing that i did not smell or did not need or want one. I stood outside after my appointment and the thought did not enter my mind, it was nice just waiting for my ride home.
My hands are staying fresh now, hair and clothing is still clean and not with a touch of Eau de Fag on them, its so refreshing to be able to taste again and smile again and be one of the millions of people who do not smoke.
Anyhow, today will go nice and quick and before i know it i will be joining the week 3 slot, whoop whoop ;).
Enjoy your smoke free day guys and gals, stay strong.