Well today is 6 months quit, and I would very much like to say it’s been easy, but I’m afraid I can’t, as I would be lying, there have been some truly emotional times and some minor upsets both on site and off, my anxiety levels have shot through the roof at some points and then sometimes I have been more laid back than I have ever been in my life, my cholesterol and BP seem to have gone from healthy levels to not so good, they will I hope get back to normality in time.
But hey we have to go a route to be able to say we have travelled it and arrived, well almost arrived, I don’t think it really matters whether you have done 6 hours 6 weeks or 6 months it’s just the fact that you have made a conscious decision to quit smoking and stay quit, I truly believe that the day you put out that last ciggie you know that you will either never smoke again or that you are not totally committed so could possibly start smoking again, so sometimes we quit and then smoke again as I did on my last quit 20 years ago when I managed 11 months and smoked again, but from day one of that quit I always had the thought that I would smoke again, so it was no great surprise to me when I did.
I would be a hypocrite if I said it’s never crossed my mind to smoke again during this quit, because there have been many days that I have had craves, but it has always passed and I have learnt to except that it is a part of the process, those days have luckily become fewer and fewer and there are days now when I don’t think about it at all, well not until I come on here, but on saying that this site has been my main stay and has helped me achieve the status as a none smoker, when I first quit I was what you would call an accidental quitter as I had no intention of quitting on a permanent basis, just to give up for a week or two while I got over a really bad cough and cold.
That cough and cold went and 6 months later here I am, smoke free after 41 years of smoking wow never imagined it would continue to be a life quit, but I can honestly say now that it is.
And last but not least there are people on this site that I categorically could not have quit without, they have carried me from being a smoker to a none smoker, there are too many to mention but checkout my friends list they are all there and in one way or another they have helped me stay quit, even the ones I try to support have given me so much back in return in that they try their best not to smoke again, keep it up you also will make it to 6 months I’m sure, ok so there are a couple missing who chose to remove themselves but I can only say I am sad about that as they too helped me in my quit in one way or another so I thank them also.
There is especially one lady who was a guardian angel for me, she was there on a night when without a doubt I would have smoked if she had not been there for me, sometimes there comes a turning point in a quit, you can either choose to continue on the quit road or you can choose to smoke again, and I know if I had smoked that night it would have meant a lifetime of smoking for me, mainly because I know that if I had lit up that night it would not have been a matter of me being able to make a new quit as some on here have been able to do, I really think I wasn’t that strong and couldn’t have done that, it would have been another 20 years and like my mum that would have been too late, so thank you that lady for nearly catching pneumonia so that I could stay smoke free, I am sure she will know who she is as she is the only person on here that has a shed in her back garden which is not heated and another clue is her name is Pol THANK YOU.
So there you go, I am now half a year quit, I feel proud that I have done it and I hope that come Christmas day I will be just as proud and able to say One Year Smoke and Nicotine free, and maybe if I am lucky there will be someone about to say welcome to the Penthouse if they are not all too busy eating Christmas pud and drinking wine :D, thanks again all on this forum for the friendship and support that I have been given from day one.