I have messed up big time - 2 fags today:mad:
I FEEL AWFUL!! I was really struggling have been for the past couple of weeks but it seems to have got worse not better, and then today I just thought SOD THIS, and went out and bought 10 and have smoked 2.
They have made me feel really sick and given me a headache, and rather than make me feel better I now just feel super guilty that I've been so stupid
I'm not making excuses but have been having a bit of a rough time recently and I just couldn't take the constant nagging miserable feeling anymore. I really thought having a fag would take it all away - how ridiculous is that?
I can't believe at 3 months I would still feel so bad - maybe coming of the NRT has triggered this, or maybe it is the 'terrible 3's'
Now, where do I go from here?? I think maybe I should go back on the step 3 patches for a couple of weeks and ride this out, or should I just forget it, go CT and see how I get on?
It's funny, my mum, my friend's mum and another friend's husband all gave up in the last 4-5 months using Champix and none of them have felt like this, it has honestly been a breeze for all of them. I don't know whether to go bank to my smoking clinic and ask for Champix, but as I am currently on anti-dep's I don't know if I can take it........
Oh - I'm just really p&^%%d off with myself now:mad: