How far can you hit your Nicodemon with a 6 iron?

Morning of day 4 has been itchy, one bad crave that honestly nearly did for me. I have the nicodemon jumping on my shoulders, whispering deceit in my ear. My whole body is tense but this time I have ammunition of my own to fight back with ( info and support ).

3-5 minuets, craves don't last any longer than that, that's powerful knowledge! The big crave I had, I remembered that fact and sat it out, now it's over.

The tension in my shoulders is fading even as I write this, even if nobody ever reads what I'm saying, writing helps let it out and helps crystallise the positives and my determination.

I know why this morning has been bad, it's due to my mental state, after all the Nicotine has gone now.

Today will be a tough day only 'if' I let it be. Friday is historically fail day in our house. I will not go into the reasons why because I want to look forward not back. Suffice to say that I will employ all possible strategy today to remain in control of my thinking and my attitude. That may include rabbiting on a bit in posts like this, please forgive me if I start to talk nonsense :P

At the end of the day, it's my choice. If I fail it's because I choose to smoke (no more BS excuses) , if I succeed it's because I choose not to be a smoker today.

Ohh, the answer to the golf question is 170 yards :D

Kind regards,

Chris

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  • Morning Chris, sound like you are having a bit of a battle there but sounds like you are winning :D

    Keep up with the reading and the posting, sending you some PMA to send that demon back to where he belongs.

    I choose not to smoke today, and trust me I have many reasons (excuses) why I might. My mum went into hospital yesterday and has an op for cancer, today, so yeh I could say bugger this and smoke myself stupid, but would that help my mum, er no. Would that help me deal with the stress, er no. Would that help my kids when they go to visit Nana in hospital, er no.

    So no excuses Chris, you and me will choose not to smoke today.

  • Hi Bev

    Will be thinking about you and your mum today. My wifey went through the big C back in 2001-3. So I know the challenges it brings to the lives of everyone involved.

    I'm in awe of your PMA.

    For sure we choose not to smoke today! All of a sudden it feels like a damn certainty.

    Best of luck to your Mum.

    Kind regards

    Chris

  • Hi Chris :)

    Well done you on day 4 and sounds like you're ready for battle :D that's good good the Demon a good hard swipe OK

    Just hang on grit those teeth, deep breaths,talk a load of drivel if you like doesn't matter as long as you don't smoke OK

    Below is my standard welcome and advice post which I try and give all new members

    Welcome to the forum and well done on the decision to quit possibly one of the most important you will ever make and you will be losing nothing but you will regain control of your life and that has to be good

    You will find all the help and support you need on here as we all help each other just like a family we are here for you every step of the way cheering the good days and sympathising with the bad but the good far outweigh the bad

    Read the posts on here you will find a lot of tips and advice and in the signatures of a lot you will find links to other sites just click on them Here are 2 I find very good to start you off whyquit.com and woofmang.com Read, read and then read some more as the more you read and learn about why you smoked and about your addiction the easier your quit will be

    This link is good for the psychological part of quitting whyquit.com/whyquit/A_Sympt...

    Post often to let us know how you're doing, to rant, rave have a moan whatever you like pretty much anything goes on here OK

    Love

    Marg

    Morning Bev

    I hope everything goes well for your Mum xxxxxxxxxxx

  • Coffee = bad ?

    Thanks marg!

    I wonder just how much caffeine has to do with causing quit difficulties?

    Day 4, the Nicotine 'should' be removed from the system. My mind is quite sure of what I'm doing and I do not feel in anyway trapped into not being able to smoke, so I should not be causing my own difficulties.

    But I have hit the coffee for the first time today. After reading that Nicotine reduced the effect of Caffeine I reduced my consumption in the first three days, did not stop it because withdrawing from two substances at the same time would be silly, but I certainly cut down, until this morning.

    I'm rationalising that today's wobbles & shoulder tension have as much to do with a caffeine high causing me to go hyper, as they do with any real craving for a ciggie.

    Will lay off the coffee and see if I calm down a bit. Failing that gonna hit the gym at five and work my ass off till I can't move any more :D

  • Coffee = bad for sure...

    Chris I definitely think coffee is bad. I can't cut it out completely but have dropped to 2 cups during the morning and no other caffeine all day. There's lots of stuff about this on the whyquit site - Margareth puts this in her signature and she'll have sent your a welcome message with the link in case you haven't been there. I've found all the info there that explains the physical effects of stopping really useful, I feel it's easier to deal with the symptoms if I know why they're there!!

    Hope this Friday turns out to be a victory day.

    Have a great weekend

    Vix

  • Coffee feeds my Nicodemon shock!

    Ok, so maybe it's all in my mind but after I stopped knocking back the coffee earlier, this evening has been jitter free. Even before beasting myself in the gym :D

    Talking of the gym, wow it's so cool to be able to breath, and it's a lot easier to work hard without feeling like your about to hurl ;)

    1hr:45mins till it's technically day 5 for me, 'fail Friday' has all but passed and is about to be banished from the bad memory banks for ever.

    Thanks to all for the support, now I only have to get through 'Trafford centre with family Saturday' and I'm home free :eek:

  • Hi Chris

    Keep choosing to be a non smoker, you're in the March for Freedom gang aswell!

    I was jittery days 3 and 4, but I didn't know about the caffeine thing and I had a can of red bull yesterday :eek:

    Today hasn't been so bad. Might give the caffeine a miss tomorrow.

    Hey, nearly a week for us?

    C :):)

  • Day 5

    Just a quick check in for day 5, feeling good and looking forward to the day. Golf followed by shopping, sushi for dinner and a movie to finish. Not even going to get grumpy if wifey and daughter spend all afternoon in shoe and handbag shops :D Just suck it up and go with the flow :cool:

    As suggested by Vix24, I'm using whyquit as a source of info, there is some really helpful stuff there too this link in particular as supplied by Marg is ace:

    whyquit.com/whyquit/A_Sympt...

    *waves at KatMac* Sounds good when you say nearly a week :) I will stay away from Redbull and Starbucks today!

    Keep marching :)

    Chris

  • Weekend nearly over so normally I'm like :(

    But we survived it without smoking so instead I'm like :)

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