hi all, it's felt like a long haul but I am starting to feel better and see the bigger picture.The nicotine habit was for 42 years a way of life for me,it was a wonder cure,reward,relaxant,tonic you name it,there was a ciggy for every occasion. What a con.What I have learnt is that if I feel good or bad having a smoke would make no difference to any situation.Every one knows this,but feeling it is a different ball game. It reminded me of a time (a lifetime ago)after breaking up with boyfriends,I would always remember the good times and forget all the the reasons why I ended the relationships in the first place. Maybe I'm just slow on seeing the blindingly obvious. I can see it now. I don't smoke anymore, I am in control, I've achieved what I thought was beyond me. 11 weeks without a single smoke.I have found this forum to be the greatest help, for me it has made the difference between success and failure.
So thank you every one,