What a useful little forum this is! A 7 (ish) day lurker here!
Well on Tuesday 19th January 2010 at 8:45am it will be the 7th day since one of the best decisions I have made in a very long time! (I'm hoping so).
I smoked my last cigarette. Realised I had no money until pay day for any more (I get paid a salary at the end of every month, apart from December when its two weeks early!!). And at 8:45am in the morning (still blurry eyed) said to myself - 'ah stuff this. Just give up now and forever'.
Don't get me wrong, the first 2/3 days were a bit hellish to say the least. As I hadn't prepared for this momentous event, I think the shock of it, coupled together with the nicotine withdrawal symptoms played havoc on my mind and body. Stubbornness, sheer down right stubbornness (and with no money!!) got me through.
Drinking cold water very slowly seemed to help early on. Taking in 3 deep breaths 'every so often' did the trick too.
Days 4, 5 were better. Reading about all the improvements to my body already (nicotine flushed out of my body, carbon monoxide levels rapidly reducing) pushed me on. Also as I've read a few people mention on this forum, the cleaning of the teeth in the morning has been much more pleasant! (also, no need to scrub the dirty little fingers which were stained). Talking of which, I dont seem to bite my finger nails anymore - so much for cigs reducing stress!
I had quite a few beers on Friday too (in the house). And although evidently floating around my mind, the alcohol made me somewhat more brash about this little kicking of the habit journey. Which surprised me as the last 2 times, it was alcohol that brought me back to the dark road that is nicotine addiction. I have a party to go to on Saturday, I just hope my reactions will be the same as this time rather than last.
On to today. Something has been nagging me. I know what it is. But I'm trying not to give it a second thought. Feel a bit 'spaced out'. I'm sure I'm slurring my words but I cant quite tell. But, I've found this excellent forum - and read some already inspirational posts - and I'm not backing down on this - I hope not, I really dont.
Last quit time it was a case of alcohol, and a 'one wont hurt', 'I can give up straight away tomorrow' attitude, that ruined it before it had started - that was back in early June 2009.
I'm adamant though that this time I've smoked my last cigarette. One week ago tomorrow at 8:45am.
Everyone on day 1, 2, 3, 4 or 10, 20, 40. Hang in there. We can do this. And we will.
Now who's got the chocolate?!?