It's been like a roller coaster ride for me really. The first 4 weeks were certainly the easiest - I know it should get easier for most and it probably does for others but for the last two weeks I have been tackling the hardest triggers for two weeks constant. When I am out of the house I never smoked so a work day was easier to cope with. I suppose I used to be what could be described as a closet smoker [ No-one at work knew I smoked- I work in school so would never dream of nipping off at lunchtime to have a smoke)
So being at home since The 18th December pigging out over Christmas has just made me feel slobbish and lethargic and having to buy a pair of jeans the next size up didn't exactly put me in a good mood either. But then again trying out my new bread maker and eating the fresh bread slapped in butter is not going to make me feel better about my weight is it? So, these last couple of days have been frustratingly hard, I've been snapping at my husband who is also quitting,- little things like him hogging the TV control to watch FOOTBALL! really irritated me yesterday. when usually doesn't bother me as I prefer listening to music.
So today, I decided to kick myself into gear, I put a couple of motivational songs onto a CD [ Desmond Decker You can get it if you really want) and Jimmy Cliff ' I can see clearly now)
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Put them on in my car whilst driving to the gym, Did a body pump class [weights] and stocked up with fruit to nibble on. So having exercised my lungs with yelling out the songs to myself and exercised the body I came home and planned a healthy eating menu for the week. Starting with cooking a leek and potato soup and freezing it into decent portions.
So it's time I stopped feeling sorry for myself> I am looking forward to going back to school on Tuesday and do have lots of planning to keep me busy over the next few days. I'm going to get myself out walking tomorrow for an hour with my I-pod and motivational songs and hope that my positive mind will take over once again.
so heres' hoping for bright sunshinin day tomorow [ well snow will do)
jasmine123
I can see clearly now the rain is gone
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It's gonna be a bright, bright sunshinin' day
It's gonna be a bright, bright sunshinin' day
Oh yes, I can make it now the pain is gone
All of the bad feelings have disappeared
Here is the rainbow I've been praying for
It's gonna be a bright, bright sunshinin' day
Look all around, there's nothing but blue skies
Look straight ahead, there's nothing but blue skies
I can see clearly now the rain is gone
I can see all obstacles in my way
Here's the rainbow I've been praying for
It's gonna be a bright, bright sunshinin' day
It's gonna be a bright, bright sunshinin' day
Real, real, real, real bright, bright sunshinin' day
Yeah, hey, it's gonna be a bright, bright sunshinin' day