Gosh is it only day 3??!!
Well slept a bit better last night probably due to the alcohol I drank but still vivid dreams, so I am going to go patchless tonight to see if that helps. Did really really crave once I was lying in bed waiting for sleep to take hold.
Unfortunately, me and OH had massive row last night. We had gone out for a meal with the whole of family due a birthday and I was so snappy all night and yes loud with it I think he finally had enough. Apparently I am thinking about it way too much and thats my problem, I am also being negative thinking I am going to fail. So big arugment in car going home although it was in hushed wispers as the kids were in the back, till in the end it was a case of "just dont speak to me" (this from OH). Then he told me to go to the shop and buy some cigarettes as he cant take this for much longer.
Must admit prior to him saying this I was really tempted as I dont think I can take this for much longer either BUT cos he said it I became very stubborn and told him where to go - again in a hushed wisper.
this has to be THE hardest thing I have ever done but I know that I will reap the benefits. Trying to be more positive today but as much as I am o.k. in work its at night when I get home that I am snappy, agressive and moody. I feel really bad on our eldest as she is getting the brunt of it but I dont know what to say to her. Also dont know what I am going to say to OH this evening as we havent spoke since.
Any suggestions on
1) what to say to eldest about my mood swings?
2) what to say to OH apart from Sorry, as we are both to blame?
3) How to overcome the nastiness within me when I get home?