I have finally realised that I don't actually enjoy smoking. The taste, the smell, the stinging in my eyes.
I realised that after every cigarette I used to count down the time till my next one. Not so much I needed it, just, I don't know, had to have one????
I am on Day 5 and don't actually have cravings as such, sometimes my triggers such as after eating a meal set me off and I think, "ooooh I could have a cig" but then I think how far I have got and don't want to ruin my hard work.
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I have finally realised that I don't actually enjoy smoking. The taste, the smell, the stinging in my eyes.
I realised that after every cigarette I used to count down the time till my next one. Not so much I needed it, just, I don't know, had to have one????
I am on Day 5 and don't actually have cravings as such, sometimes my triggers such as after eating a meal set me off and I think, "ooooh I could have a cig" but then I think how far I have got and don't want to ruin my hard work.
The feeling of upset, and the fear that i had failed was so overwhelming i think its actually gone towards making sure i stay quit.. i don't never want to feel that kind of let down now, and i'll do everything to make sure it stays that way.
Now as for the smell of smoke...
I was in HMV last week and was browsing through the racks of cd's.. 2 rather scruffy chaps walked past me, and i became aware of probably the most disgusting smell of spent smoke i've ever smelled for a long time.. i almost gagged on the smell it was that bad. Now i aint one of these 'cough cough ex-smoker types', but it was really bad.. so bad i moved to the next aisle for 5 mins and looked at some dvd's instead.
Must be part of the healing process to get such a negative reaction to the smell of smoke i guess
Agree with the smell thing Jase.. How come we didn't notice this when we smoked??? I went around stinking like that and never realised???:eek:
But yea, Foghorn (great name) It's soo not enjoyable when you think about it. We only do it to get at the nicotine. I didn't enjoy it anymore really, maybe one out of every hundred, and i was spending £80 per week on something i rarely enjoyed and which was making me ill....Why did i do this???
I work in Youth Offending and we often get parents coming to the reception. Yesterday a parent came in and was speaking to me, Whilst I was gagging on the sickening smell. I had never realised it was so bad.
Also I had never noticed the amount of smokers around. On the way into town earlier I walked past about 12 people in a 2 minute walk, all stood outside of the offices smoking. Puffing smoke inot the faces of passersby. I am quite proud of the fact I felt disgusted at the idea of smoking lol!
I noticed there is only 1 smoker in my building at work now!
When I joined 3 years ago there were 6 of us. 3 are now social smokers ..... can't understand that one. 1 quit due to serious ill health and is now supporting me and the other is still puffing away!
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