it's now 1 week, 2 days 2 hours 39 mins since my last cigarette. God, it's been hard. To be honest the only thing that has kept me going is the thought of ever having to do week one again. And, this is me on champix, lord knows what it would be like without. I don't know because I've never got this far before without being pregnant. I always went off the things when I was pregnant so that time was a piece of cake, I have no idea why I started again after the kids were born, stupid.
The cravings are easing up now, the habit is dying. I can now sit in the office without crying. And, only once or twice have I found myself puffing on a biro during the past couple of days. I still know that I am very much an addicted smoker though. it would take nothing for me to go back to it. If someone offered me one I would have a hard time saying no (although I would). I can still feel the addiction there as if we are playing a game. It's given up shouting and screaming at me day and night, now it's just sitting there quietly trying to psych me out, waiting for me to fail. But, I never ever ever want to go through that first week again. never.
So, that's my update, I hope you are all doing ok. Hang in there because even though it feels like more than you can cope with sometimes, you can cope. I read on the woofmang blog a thing where kevin said that if he couldn't resolve not to smoke for a whole day he would say, I will not smoke for 6 hours, if 6 hours was too long, make it one, if one was too long make it 5 minutes. i've done that lots, during the heavy awful craves when I have been sobbing and physically aching to smoke, I have told myself I won't smoke for the next 5 minutes. If the crave is still there at the end of 5 minutes I repeat, I've got through 5 minutes I will not smoke for the next 5 and so on. One evening I had to substitute with a jar of nutella and a teaspoon (oops) the nutella lost :rolleyes:.
I'm rambling on now, but I just wanted to pop in and say hello.