If I ever needed reminding!!

That I'm a recovering nicotine addict then today has been that day.

What a strange day it has been, I on purpose went outside beside my smoking work colleagues for a "fresh air break" today. I never thought of smoking but it was were I used to be this time last month so it felt familiar. I did and didn't feel I was missing something if that makes sense.

I have had a few beers tonight and I really feel like I am missing having a smoke but I don't have the cravings to smoke, I just feel I'm missing something.

That may sound mad but makes perfect sense to me tonight!!

I realise that these are the triggers I have to look out for and I will overcome them as I know this is the last time I quit the demon.

I will no longer let a weed control my life, my thoughts, my everyday life. Today I take control of what I want to be and that my friends is a non smoker:D

Have a good smoke free day

PS I am now on day 29, have not smoked 573 ciggies and saved 143 Shekels, It's all good!!

Bobross

PPS just read that back to myself and it sounded like an Independence day speech :-)

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  • Hi bobross,

    can fully relate to everything you have said.i have had deep feelings of feeling something is missing but i put it down to only being quit for 10 days.

    I think we just have to re programme our mind and actions to new feelings without our deadly nico demons. we are beginning a new life as non smokers so perhaps that explains alot and hopefully the bad days will die away to leave only strong positive non smoking good days.

    well done you on day 29 !! keep strong.

    love ali xx

  • Hi bobross,

    can fully relate to everything you have said.i have had deep feelings of feeling something is missing but i put it down to only being quit for 10 days.

    I think we just have to re programme our mind and actions to new feelings without our deadly nico demons. we are beginning a new life as non smokers so perhaps that explains alot and hopefully the bad days will die away to leave only strong positive non smoking good days.

    well done you on day 29 !! keep strong.

    love ali xx

    Hi Ali and thanks, I thought I was going slightly mad and no one could relate to what I posted.

    Thank you for making me feel not alone, That's way this forum is sometimes invaluable. Well done on day ten, Keep going and never doubt you decision to quit, We well all make it together

  • Hi Bob :D

    Well done you on 29 days that's great

    I understand exactly what you mean about something missing

    I had a couple of fleeting thoughts like that while I was away for a few days

    Yes there will be triggers but they get easier to cope with evertime you beat one

    Love

    Marg xxxxxxx

  • I feel like that most days, its like an empty feeling inside but Ive found that some days it dissapears which is great cos I know that things are improving. Cant wait till it has gone for good.

    Well done on your quit you are doing brilliant. Mark is nearly at 6 weeks now with the Champix, I had a blip a few weeks ago so am straggling behind a bit.

  • Well done with your quit Bob! a month.... feels good doesn't it?

    Oddly, I logged on to post something similar and found everthing I was feeling today in your post! I've had a similar day... my family have been round!

    I won't let anyone smoke in my house anymore so both my Mum and my Brother respected my views and went outside...At first it was really bothering me that I wasn't doing what they were doing... not because I wanted to smoke... but because I miss the ritual... I was incredibly resentful! (although I didn't realise at the time that it was that causing my bad mood!) lol

    They just stayed outside in the end! Eventually I joined them on the patio and I had a smoker either side of me. We were chatting for about an hour, I had a glass of wine....

    I didn't realise until after they'd gone that I hadn't felt a thing during all that time. No longing for a cig, no elation because I'd 'managed' not to do it, hadn't thought about it once. It was as if it was just something they do, and I don't... simple! Wow... When did that happen?

    Now my hair just smells of second hand smoke and not very pleasant.

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