Day 23. Haven't posted for a few days, pre-occupied with the snow etc. Had a few odd moments, all those associations with occassions and situations, although, after 20 years of smoking you can almost associate breathing with smoking!
This has been the big realisation for me, you sit there day by day waiting for the magic wand to wave and suddenly there will be no urges to smoke. NOT GOING TO HAPPEN. I've spent 7,300 days smoking, and it had almost become a way of life, much like breathing, eating, drinking etc. I foolishly expected it to take a couple of weeks perhaps to stop associating smoking with different situations, but how can I possibly cover 20 years of events/situations in a few weeks. I can't can I, which has been a great realisation for me (should have been more obvious I know, feel a little foolish).
Now, whenever I get that slight awkward feeling, you know the one i'm talking about, I think of it as just that, a feeling. It doesn't hurt and sometimes it can last ages, specially if i'm a bit tense, but it is just a feeling. A few deep breaths stops it from getting out of hand.
All in all I am a much better, relaxed, happier person. I laugh more, I certainly smell better, and I have discovered much more about myself because I think I like myself that little bit more.
Isn't if FAB