Here I go again!

Hi All,

Not been on here since the start of the year, when I managed to stop for 3 months, then went to Australia on holiday and started again.

This was followed by two further lame ass attempts in July and August.

This has been the most deperate year yet for me, it really has. I have been close to tears at times thinking that I just cannot stop. The crazy thing is, is that I have literally stopped about 25 times now in total, so I know I can do it, its just sometimes my mindset is so f**ked up I feel utterly unable to even start. The panic attacks in bed are still haunting me. I am convinced I have angina but am so freaked out by the prospect of going to the Doctors about it. In any case I know its purely down to smoking, as within a few days of evry quit I have made these attacks have completely disappeared.

Although I didn't actually post on the board all that much earlier in the year, I took great strength from everyones comments on here. This board is such a massive help, to know there are so many folk going through exactly the same sh*t is utterly invaluable imo, i just hope this time it can finally pull me through once and for all.

So, there it is, I smoked my final cigarette about half an hr ago, got 40 mins left of this night shift, then thats it, I have four days off work to start climbing that hill for what I hope, is the last time.

Cheers everyone, I look forward to catching up with you all in the coming days and weeks!!

KB

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  • Hi King Bee

    Do not despair, help is at hand :)

    The sound really determined to be a non smoker and that is half the battle. The other half is getting your mind to accept that what you are doing is what you want to do, you are not "giving up" anything, you are choosing to turn your back on the evil weed

    Have you read Alan Carr or anything similar? Honestly, he didn't "click" with me the first couple of times I read his books, but one day the penny just dropped and here I am today :)

    Follow the links in my sig - a very good place to start, and keep posting here - I couldn't have made this my successful quit without the guys on here :)

    (Though be warned some of them are a bit wierd! :eek:)

    I have been quit for 7 Months, 3 Weeks, 1 Day, 9 hours, 16 minutes and 45 seconds (236 days). I have saved £1,181.92 by not smoking 4,727 cigarettes. I have saved 2 Weeks, 2 Days, 9 hours and 55 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 17/02/2008 22:00

  • Kingbee.

    Well done on making the decision.

    The truth is that I too have been where you are now. In fact I think that I used to "think I enjoyed" the 1st few weeks back smoking so much that I would quit regularly in order to start again. Now there is a twisted viewpoint!

    Stopping is, as you have found, only a small part of the battle and the trick is being able to change your mind set, as Barbara has said.

    Those links are a good place to start, but I also find that reading and answering other peoples posts on here is a great way of strengthening my resolve. It just helps me consider myself as a former smoker.

    All the best with it and keep posting.

    Nic

  • Hi King Bee,

    I too have tried before and failed,I think there are very few people who can do it on first attempt.

    I too agree that your mind set has to be right ,I know this time its different for me, my attitude has changed so much to my last 2 attempts.

    You can do it!:)

  • Hi Kingbee

    Welcome back You lnow you will have good support here so please come join us. We are all trying the same thing and most have tryed before. you got nothing to lose by trying again. Linda xxxx

  • Congratulations on your decision jocasaja.

    I wish you every success, however the NHS don't seem to realise that the best way to help you stop is to help you to re-educate yourself about why you smoke and how to deal with the desire to.

    They concentrate on dealing with the chemical addiction, while that only forms about 5% of the problem!

    To give yourself the best chance read as much as you can. have a look at the following websites are a good place to start.

    whyquit.com/

    woofmang.com/tales/index.shtml

    quitsmokingonline.com/

    Best of luck for Monday

    Nic

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