Hi everyone. I feel obliged to confess that on Friday I gave in to temptation and smoked a couple of cigarettes. My resolve was loosened by alcohol..
At the time I managed to persuade myself that two cigarettes in nine days was still far better than what I would otherwise have smoked, but even so I felt disappointed in myself afterwards. Happier to report that since then I have been smoke free and am thus back at day 5 now. In a strange way I feel my desire to stop is now even greater than it was before, and I'm annoyed that I caved. I have a tickly cough and feel a bit rough - this may be a slight touch of flu anyhow, but my smoking can't have helped and in my mind they are very associated. I feel bad because I smoked.
I really, really don't want to smoke ever again.