Well, this is the first time I have ever really tried to quit smoking. Im 22 and i have smoked, properly, for 6 years now. I think it is more the habit for me - knowing when im sat watching telly, now ive got my own place, i can enjoy some ciggies. and when im at work, i know the exact times that i go out for a ciggie. for the last 2 and a half years i have gone out on a weekday, from work, at 12, 2 and 5 for a fag break!
Ive got a lot of people telling me they dont think i will manage it - which doesnt help really does it i have told everyone at work that i need their support not them taking the mick! i tried not to tell my parents but having just seen my dad, it appears the do know! I just dont want the pressure to be honest - i will be putting enough pressure on myself! At the end of the day - I am going to TRY!! if it doesnt happen, then forgive me and I will try again next month
i decided on the 4th August a few weeks ago - people asked me why then, and i said it was just the first Monday of the next month. i enjoy smoking so i wanted a few more weeks of being able to - knowing i would stop on the 4th. A very good friend of mine was diagnosed with a VERY vicious form on non-hodgkins lymphnode cancer earlier this year and he has just been given the all clear. he has a bit stem cell treatment to go through in a few weeks and then he will be able to get back on with his life - all be it a totally different life than he had, he knows he is going to live now. Its very sad because we all know it is going to get him eventually but we're hoping he's got another 10/15 years and will see his boys grow up - theyre 8 and 9 now. He never smoked, hardly drinks, is the perfect weight and is just a picture of health - so its just proves - cancer doesnt care who it gets! Anyway,. I have done race for life for him, i have spent time with him and now I am going to quit smoking for him. THAT, is what I hope is going to get me through it this time. Everytime i think about how difficult it is wanting a ciggies, i will think how it doesnt even compare to the pain he has been through.
Anyway, now you all have my life story!! Sorry if ive bored anyone, i just think it helps to get it all out somewhere where hopefully people understand.
anyway, have to shoot - good luck to everyone else, and i will come on tomorrow and update whether am suceeding or not!!!