Hope you are all doing fine
I haven't had any real cravings since week 2 or so, but still have "fleeting thoughts" almost every day. You know... I set the ironing board up, switch on the iron and think "I'll just have a cigarette while that heats up." Or I arrive at the train station to find it's delayed 10 mins, and "that" thought immediately jumps into my head again.
Methinks Ol' Nic is determined to catch me whenever I have a few free minutes to myself. Until now, I would leap into defensive mode, have a glass of water, pop a mint into my mouth, run around the block (aye, right!) and figit nervously until the "craving" passed.
NOT ANY MORE Folks! * Drum roll please.......*
Now when 'Ol Nic tries that sneaky enticing ploy of his, I don't go on the defensive, I immediately go on the attack (mentally at least ;))
"F*** Off You Dirty B*****D!!!!!! I DO NOT SMOKE!!!! GET THAT THROUGH YOUR THICK SKULL AND P*** OFF AND LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!"
Hey, maybe I'm cracking up here....*manic laughter* but I quite like this new confidence I am finding somewhere within myself. No longer cowering afraid in case I can't help myself and "slip up" by having a fag - I am in charge now Nic, so go away and find some other poor sucker!!!!!
PS/ Please note I NEVER swear or indulge in bad language. All sweary words are kept strictly under my breath :rolleyes: