I'm bored now

hello, i'm back again, thanks for all supporting me in the first few days - I was so thrilled giving up to start with - it was like having my own nicotine released. Now i'm an official non-smoker (>4 weeks...) and no ciggies any more hidden at home, i'm not even craving it as such, but my life feels somehow boring now due to no real highs nor lows .... - the smoking gave me the once-a-day ( or more) special moment which got me out of the day to day routine and gave me a brake - nowadays i've got more time on board and thus work even harder and more effective, have more time with my daughter, do a lot more sport and feel ( apart from having gained 4 kg weight) physically a lot fitter and better, BUT somehow i've lost this special moment , where i was "naughty", did things "just for myself"i.e. smoking......it might sound absolutely stupid, but i've lost something and do not even want it back, but still it makes me quite low sometimes....does that make any sense?????

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  • Oh Victoria, honey what you say does make sense - a lot! But I can assure you that that feeling tends to slowly fade away as you go farther in your quit, when the thought and the memory of smoking becomes about something that you used to do and simply don't do anymore. Mind you, I'm talking about something kinda like a dear, sweet memory, not something you grow cold about. Like memories of younger years - it's actually like when I look at old pics of my fourteen-year-old self in the 80's and think "whoa, I'd never get that hairdo now if my life depended on it!!" :eek: but still the memories the weird-ass hairdo pics bring back are sweet and precious to me and nothing about me would be the same without that specific hairdo in that specific time of my life :p ...God, and now I don't know if I am making sense :D

    You stay strong sweetie because what I mean in the end is that life does get so much easier.

  • Hi Victoria, i know the feeling. at 3 weeks 4 days i posted a similar thread. its like im fed up of the struggle. I came on here and the support was overwelming. i felt i would let the good folk here down aswel as myself and soldierd on. Im at 5 weeks 4 days now and i know i wouldnt be here without the forum folk. But hang in there it is soooooo worth the effort. good luck x

  • thank you, vielen dank, multi grazie

    thank youso much for your replies - i'm feeling better now - and yes it's true one way of filling the "gap the smoking an the thoughts about it" IS TO WRITE HERe ONLINE!!!!!

    HUGS TO ALL YOURS VICTORIA

    P.S.I did'nt realize that I've stopped smoking not 4 but over 6!!! weeks ago (day43):):):)

  • 6 Weeks is great! Good job. I am sure one day (and I have no idea when) we will all feel 100% normal again and we will not miss one thing about that nasty habit. Everyone is different so the timing is probably different for everyone, but it will come for all of us! Hang tight and ride this process through! We will wake one morning and think WOW I feel NORMAL! Until then - keep writing and keep busy :D

  • 6 Weeks is great! Good job. I am sure one day (and I have no idea when) we will all feel 100% normal again and we will not miss one thing about that nasty habit. Everyone is different so the timing is probably different for everyone, but it will come for all of us! Hang tight and ride this process through! We will wake one morning and think WOW I feel NORMAL! Until then - keep writing and keep busy :D

    I Look forward to that day Nosmoke!!!!

  • me to !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:D:D:D

  • Meee Threeeee!!!! :d

  • feeling up and down today true craving for a fag, eating and eating and eating and runny nose and headaches from a stinking cold.........I'm feeling soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sorry for myself - that just made me laugh soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much!!!!!!!!!!!!!I just imagined how it was the first few days without a fag - compare to this I'm (almost) in heaven!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Anyway even with all of my self-pity I'm not going back to THE, not MY , smoking habit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:mad::mad::mad::mad

    Let's keep on giving and taking this fantastic support!

    hugs to all Victoria

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