Tough Weekend

[nsd_user663_2367]

This weekend was rough....

main trigger f'ing brother is AWOL again so I am irrationally worried again.

had to go to a party of old classmates who I have been out of touch with and now need as contacts since I am moving back to town... awkward

had to wait for and hour for a bus to get to said party

Party had lots of outdoor space for smokers

Contractor who was supposed to get some work done on house so I could continue did NOTHING ALL WEEK except leave a bigger mess

Toilet broke:mad:

Laptop died

But I did not smoke.... wanted to at times but not as bad as in the past. Keep trying to remindmyself that smoking wont help any of the situations. In the past I have always used these types of situations as excuses to smoke. I hope I can keep it up.

I even had fun at the party and realized that I actually like these people alot and dont know why I was out of touch. It was also really nice to not be one of the nasty smokers at a party for once.... and I may just make it to my next paychek without having to go to credit.

[nsd_user663_2412]

Hey well done, you did great!!

Like you say we all try to look for excuses to smoke, but you did sooo well for not giving in when it would have been so easy to!

Keep it up, your doing brill!!

[nsd_user663_2367]

I think sometimes we are glad for a Monday morning for normality to kick back in, or is that just me

Yeah now I can channel all my anger at my boss:mad:

Most of the things that were bothering me are pretty inconsequential compared to the possibilities illness caused by smoking. My brother is someone i need to learn how to deal with smoking or no.

[nsd_user663_2318]

kenzo~

This weekend was rough...

But I did not smoke.... wanted to at times but not as bad as in the past. Keep trying to remindmyself that smoking wont help any of the situations. In the past I have always used these types of situations as excuses to smoke. I hope I can keep it up.

I even had fun at the party and realized that I actually like these people alot and dont know why I was out of touch. It was also really nice to not be one of the nasty smokers at a party for once.... and I may just make it to my next paychek without having to go to credit.

I am glad to hear you got through it! Too many obstacles to deal with huh?

I guess we will be so much stronger of a person when we get through this!

Did you go to your class reunion? I have not been to any of mine. This coming year will be my 25th. I may go to it if I can lose the weight I have put on! We shall see..

[nsd_user663_2367]

Did you go to your class reunion? I have not been to any of mine. This coming year will be my 25th. I may go to it if I can lose the weight I have put on! We shall see..

Wasn't an official reunion really just a get together.. it was grad school folks so only 4 1/2 years out but I had really cut out of there and lost touch... now im moving back to town and have to "network" but the better element was in attendance.. we had some real a**holes. Missed my 10yr college reunion few weeks ago sad about it but really bad timing. HS is ancient history to me no interest there.

[nsd_user663_2162]

hey kenzo despite the difficulties you're staying strong and generally doing so good, I think you should change the :mad: smilie you put in your signature with a happier one, like this :), or at least lol - you are right you have to learn how to deal with the way your little brother is, besides since you love him you'll always be worried no matter what, but you should most definitely not harm yourself because of that - think about how negative for both if you it would be if you smoked again because of him...You're doing great. Stay strong pal