This weekend was rough....
main trigger f'ing brother is AWOL again so I am irrationally worried again.
had to go to a party of old classmates who I have been out of touch with and now need as contacts since I am moving back to town... awkward
had to wait for and hour for a bus to get to said party
Party had lots of outdoor space for smokers
Contractor who was supposed to get some work done on house so I could continue did NOTHING ALL WEEK except leave a bigger mess
But I did not smoke.... wanted to at times but not as bad as in the past. Keep trying to remindmyself that smoking wont help any of the situations. In the past I have always used these types of situations as excuses to smoke. I hope I can keep it up.
I even had fun at the party and realized that I actually like these people alot and dont know why I was out of touch. It was also really nice to not be one of the nasty smokers at a party for once.... and I may just make it to my next paychek without having to go to credit.