Hi all, first time on here.
My name is Paul, im 38 & have smoked since i was 15, i have two daughters aged 4 & 7.
This is the third time ive tried to stop & so far the longest at 16 days.
Im taking Zyban on the freshstart.
I drove my daughters to school on day 2 & my eldest said she was glad i was stopping smoking because she loved me lots & lots, i was her bestest friend (along with her mum of coarse) & she didnt want me to go to Jesus!!
When i got home my wife left for work (i work shifts), i was pacing up & down as you do, feeling like my arm had been cut off. I went on the freshstart website looking at the adverts. One that struck me was called flower girl. A girl the same age as my eldest was putting flowers on her dads grave, her brother, the same age as my youngest was cuddling his mum watching his sister over the grave.
I went to pick my wife up from work & she asked me how i got on without a fag. I started to tell her about the advert & what my daughter had said & then, this big strapping 38yr old burst into tears saying i couldnt bare it if my girls had to grow up without me!
My wife put it down to the Zyban, i put it down to waking up & smelling the coffee. O.k, some of you may call me a wuss but my girls are my world, they are what i breath for & i couldnt bare the hurt they would go through if i wasnt around for them.
Well done everyone on here, you are all Brilliant. Take one minute, one hour & one day at a time. You can do it
All the very best