Background- 7 pregnancies - 2 live children, a loss we 20 weeks pregnant last November, 2 chemical pregnancies ( one before my second child) a miscarriage at 8 weeks in March where I had a dreadful experience no support at early pregnancy unit and was asked by a consultant why I was crying ( I'd just lost mu 4th loss - the scanner couldn't find my pregnancy) at that time partners were not allowed to my EPU.
Since them I've had an appointment with a recurring miscarriage specialist- all the tests showed normal- I'm assuming it's age related and a cruel numbers game.
I'm 5 weeks pregnant and have been referred for early scans- one at 7 weeks and one at 9 weeks. I'm terrified of pregnancy scans. I was told at my 20 week scan my daughter no longer had a heartbeat ( at that point I believed I was in the safer zone) and the other scans I was confirmed a chemical pregnancy ( 1st chemical we didn't bother to have 2nd chemical confirmed no point ) the last miscarriage they couldn't find the pregnancy fortunately the levels were halving so miscarriage was confirmed. All these experiences have left me very frightened of scans. Dreading them. There was no support from my early pregnancy unit either.
I know each CCG will vary but I hope if others are allowing partners there is a chance mine will be too.