32 weeks 3 days, scared still and anxiety has returned big time

Hey ladies,

I know im going on and on and have done throughout my pregnancy on here, since the weekend and my boyfriend returned to the Army after 2 weeks leave i cant get horrible thoughts out of my head, for the past few weeks i was beginning to finally enjoy my pregnancy, My little mans room is now all done and we have almost everything that we need for him.

The thing is now its getting close im getting a bit scared about labour, i know he has to come out one way and i will just have to deal with it when the time comes. Also im worried about still birth and letting my partner down, also cot death afterwards and i then get to thinking about him not growing anymore. Then theres all the stuff i have bought and how excited everyone is how will i face these things if something goes wrong.

Been thinking a lot about a friend of mine who got to term and went to the hospital as she couldnt feel her moving and they pretty much dismissed it and sent her home, she didnt give up tho and went back but her little girl had passed away. This is the same hospital i am due to have my little man at, How do you cope with something like that?, i love my little man so much already and this is scaring me so much now.

People keep commenting on how small i am aswell and that is concerning me loads, i had a growth scan at just over 30 weeks and all was ok but that was nearly 2 weeks ago what if something has gone wrong in the meantime.

Also at this scan they found glucose +++ (i think thats how you write it) in my urine and told me to check it again with the midwife last week, my midwife was angry the hospital did that as apparently they dont test for it anymore and wouldnt test it again :(

Im also really worried about the fall i had at 27 weeks and any delayed effect that may have also i burnt my lunch yesterday, i was in the smoke for a long time trying to clear it and my office is still very smoky today and im so concerned about the effect it may be having on my little man but its my fault that the office is in this condition

I have 17 working days left of work but if im honest its just dragging me down so much, short staffed and people shouting at me because of it, i cant bring my maternitiy leave forward as its too short notice.

Any advice on what i should do would be appreciated im a wreck and dont know where to turn

x x x

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  • Oh sweet :-( I dont know where to start....first things first would you rather have a humongous bump? Lol im assuming your petite yourself?im sure your midwife would send you for another scan if she was concerned. Your poor friend :'( what a awful thing to have gone through but it does not mean it will happen you hun and im sure hosp has learnt from previous. As for sudden infant death syndrome all you can do is do everything to prevent it. Its a normal thing to worry your his mummy you don't want anything to happen. I remember you saying about your fall and im sure all is fine as for the smoke, maybe give nhs direct a call... as for work you can only do what you can do. I wont lie but having babies does hurt....a lot lol but have pain relief if needed, have you considered a water birth? Can be a very relaxing and comforting. You got to trust yourself and your body sweetie its made to have babies. And once you got bubs in your arms all.pain will be forgotten and you will not let anyone down, your doing a amazing thing hun, your doing fabulous xxx

  • Oh sweet :-( I dont know where to start....first things first would you rather have a humongous bump? Lol im assuming your petite yourself?im sure your midwife would send you for another scan if she was concerned. Your poor friend :'( what a awful thing to have gone through but it does not mean it will happen you hun and im sure hosp has learnt from previous. As for sudden infant death syndrome all you can do is do everything to prevent it. Its a normal thing to worry your his mummy you don't want anything to happen. I remember you saying about your fall and im sure all is fine as for the smoke, maybe give nhs direct a call... as for work you can only do what you can do. I wont lie but having babies does hurt....a lot lol but have pain relief if needed, have you considered a water birth? Can be a very relaxing and comforting. You got to trust yourself and your body sweetie its made to have babies. And once you got bubs in your arms all.pain will be forgotten and you will not let anyone down, your doing a amazing thing hun, your doing fabulous xxx

  • And your urine should be checked at every antenatal xx

  • Thankyou im guessing with 3 babies yourself you have been there and had all the worries im facing :( thankyou so much for your reply

    x x x

  • I think its because its the 'unknown'. I used to worry about everything with my first its normal rhey're our babies and a big responsibility :-) but now there's not a lot I havent seen lol ;-) xx

  • They are our babies arnt they :), still dont think thats sinking in that in no more than 10 weeks he will be here and i will be a mum

    x x x

  • Its the best thing you will ever do :-) xx

  • Hi flossy1688

    This is completely normal "hormonal" behavior. I dont feel too bad now (at 27+wks) but a few weeks ago i was also just worried about anything & everything. at 1st i thought I wasnt getting enough movement & then when the baby eventually started kicking & stretching I thought something might be wrong & she maybe feeling some discomfort "or something"

    xx

  • in a way im glad im not the only one who worries, makes me feel slightly more "normal" im starting to worry my other half as i tell him how i feel and he feels bad for not being here to support me :(

    x x x

  • Awwrrh! bless him

    Im sure if he was around more to take care of you he'd be driving you crazy ( like my other half is now)

    LOL!! :-)

  • Awwrrh! bless him

    Im sure if he was around more to take care of you he'd be driving you crazy ( like my other half is now)

    LOL!! :-)

  • I miss him so much but last week we were starting to annoy each other so he cant win bless him

    x x x

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