Cumplí mi propósito en la vida?

[nicole_n]

Hola, tengo 17 años y aún así siento que viví demasiado en la tierra. Mis problemas se arrastran desde pequeña ya que no crecí con mis padres en un buen matrimonio y mi padre se casó por lo que tuve una madrastra que nunca me entendió. Mi hermana mayor y yo solíamos visitar a mi mamá y me partía el alma verla cada vez en peor estado (económico y de salud) donde actualmente sigue igual. La impotencia me hacía llorar por las noches porque necesitaba a mi mamá. Falle en varios intentos de suicidio ya que solía deprimirme muchísimo. Durante mi adolescencia no tuve mucho amigos hasta que llegaron personas que cambiaron mi vida y pensé que era para bien pero no fue así. Ahora todos tienen una mejor vida que yo y siento que no avanzo. No voy a ninguna parte no tengo una meta no tengo un apoyo no tengo nada solo pensamientos compulsivos y alocados que me dicen que mi vida no tiene rumbo. Falle en tres intentos de suicidio y no quiero fallar en el próximo.

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English please

[roachkid in reply to Hidden]

not really appropriate

[Missy_D in reply to roachkid]

Yes it is. How can we support someone when we cannot read the post. Seeing as 98% of people will not be able to understand it, asking for the post to be in English is more than appropriate.

[nicole_n in reply to Missy_D]

Hello, I am 17 years old and still feel like I lived too much on earth. My problems dragged on since I was little since I did not grow up with my parents in a good marriage and my father married so I had a stepmother who never understood me. My older sister and I used to visit my mother and it broke my soul to see her in a worse state (financial and health) where she is still the same today. Impotence made me cry at night because I needed my mother. I failed several suicide attempts as it used to make me very depressed. During my adolescence I did not have many friends until people came who changed my life and I thought it was for the better but it was not. Now everyone has a better life than me and I feel like I'm not moving forward. I'm not going anywhere, I don't have a goal, I don't have support, I have nothing, only compulsive and crazy thoughts that tell me that my life has no direction. I missed three suicide attempts and I don't want to miss the next one.