Hi, I'm Val. I'm new. I saw this site late at night surfing since I couldn't sleep. I'm 20 years old and got sick with meningitis two years ago. Since then my whole life has changed for the worse. I am now profoundly deaf amongst many other symptoms. I see a lot of people say they are grateful and are moving on. I don't know how. I am angry, and depressed mostly. I was suppose to go away to college when I got sick. All my friends left for college and I got left behind. Now that I'm deaf I have no idea what the future holds for me. I think at times I'm going crazy.
I just went to the audiologist last week. My mom kept begging me to go over the two years and I finally went. I knew I was deaf but to have the audiologist say it to me made me go back into my black whole. I guess deep inside I thought maybe I'd be able to get hearing aids and function. She recommend me to go to an ENT for more testing. I don't want to go.
I want my old life back. I was happy then. I don't know how to be grateful or happy now. I would like to chat with others. I stay home all day long and do nothing. I wake up and eat a little something and then lay down because I'm tired. I could use a friend or two.