This is going to be quite long, hopefully I haven't missed anything....
I was admitted to hospital at the age of four or five with viral meningitis. I was in hospital for about two weeks. I was later diagnosed with glue ear, which, on top of my genetic hearing difficulties, causes me to constantly struggle to hear much at all. I'm now seventeen and during the past year I've been to the doctor in an attempt to find the source of some of my health problems.
I have daily headaches that are so bad I had to be scanned in case of a brain tumor. The pain is an awful stabbing that changes place, and sometimes it's so bad that my face goes numb and drops on either side, as if I was having a stroke. My balance is bad, and I struggle to walk in a straight line. I often walk into walls even though I am focused on the open doorway, much to the amusements of my friends. I occasionally have sight problems including blurred vision and those streaks of light that you may get if you stand up too fast. I'm ill with colds frequently, so may immune system may have been compromised somehow as a result of my VM.
Despite the physical effects, I could cope with what VM has done to me. However, I have developed psychological problems which I fear may have been caused by illness. I have depression on a scale that isn't justified by environmental factors. This year has been the worst of them all, and I'm afraid it's getting worse. Due to the insecurity and depression, I suffer morbid jealousy which is ruining me. I have a relationship that I have always wanted, it's absolutely perfect, and I am terrified of losing it because of a condition that I cannot control, even though I know my mind is being ridiculous. I have anger problems too, and all of this has built up over time. I've tried to resist it but ended up internalising my emotions, and occasionally have burnt myself just to snap out of a destructive state, which I never want to do again.
I finally realised that my meningitis may be causing these problems this week, after years of suffering without knowing why. So, after finding the Meningitis Trust website, I've signed up to seek help and advice, and find anyone else who has shared a similar experience to mine. I know my after effects have lasted for a lot longer than many of the other sufferers I have read about, and I had it a young age, but hopefully someone will be able to help me.