All my life I have felt “different” I had to always put on an act to try to fit in. I used to wonder why people and students a school seemed to make friends and want to do things together. It was as if there were 2 of me, I masked. The one that went to school/college and university and then there was the real me that wanted to be left alone and free to study, read etc. I did experience child abuse when very young. But this is not the cause. I believe I have felt awkward and depressed all my life, but of course there were no diagnosis in that era.
my 34 year old son has just been diagnosed with ADHA (after being told when he was a child that I was an over anxious mother) My 7 year old grandson has moderate to severe autism and adhd. When I watch them it is like watching a part of myself. It makes so much sense.
am I ridiculous in wanting to find an answer for myself after all this time. Is it worth it? If so how would I even go about it. My GP just sees me as this depressive with physical health problems. Where would I even start.
thank you in advance x